When I was watching this k-drama titled 'Flower Boy Next Door' , Park Shin Hye's character reminds me of my oldself when i was in primary school .. You can say that i'm a lone ranger , almost everything i did alone...
huh , when i think about it again , i was awesome , right...hahaha xD
Dekat sekolah agama even worse , i don't even have a single friend... Recess alone , studying alone..Almost everyone thinks i'm weird.. I'm totally scared dgn people around me , x tau knp...
kadang2 rasa x nak pergi sekolah... rasa nak nangis pon ada...but , i'm cool... Being a lone ranger is better , x payah nak face people's weird behaviour hari2...
Dekat sekolah kebangsaan better sikit , ada sorang kawan , but , itupon kejap2 nak kawan , kejap x nak kawan... apa2 jelah , bila naik Standard 2... Aisyah , bdk baru came and become my friend , she's like a sister to me... and benda yang paling aku ingat about her , dia selalu cubit pipi aku ... yeah , that's true ... siapa yg rapat dgn aku mesti cubit pipi kan.. Lagi2 , Farehah !* hari2 kau cubit pipi aku kan ?* hahaha okay , later cerita pasal Farehah , okay...
I have to admit too that , dulu memang selalu kne buli pon , kena ugut pasal duit , buku kena curi depan mata then , x leh buat apa... wth?! -,-
But , few years later , I met Wei Wen and she became my bestie :) When , dekat dgn dia , i've became more  and more talkative but , only in front of her jelah.. but , when  x sama class with her... jd senyap again... haha..
And my life goes on like that until masuk secondary school , start from form 4 , i gained confidence... and became socialize with my pals... But , there is this time that i couldn't forget and kind of traumatized me...
This is when i became silent and my mood was gloomy.. When my friend kind of noticed it , they kept asked me about my problem , but , not every problem you can tell your close pals..
They kind of frustrated and scold me with my stupid behaviour , but , i kind of make a stupid reason to one of my friend to make 'em not too asked anymore , but , i didn't know that she would tell that to my other pals...
Due to that , misunderstandings occured and the problems became worst ....
But ,  i tried to make up with them... Tried to bare all the pains and confront them...
In the end , we're back to normal...
From that day , i promised myself not to show your emotions to the public and create stupid reasons to avoid questions... any problems , just keep it to myself... i'll try to bare any pains by myself... :)
But , that moment is the most painful time for me...no one even know how painful it is....  even i lose my confidence to confront the public... just like Shin Hye's character in this drama... i know that feelings , however , i'll fight it..

NAD .



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