Assalammualaikum . *sigh* Hey , peeps . See the title up there ? OMG , I'm so stress out right now -.- Like seriously , why ? why ? why ?? urgh . Dad keeps blabbering about my Uni thingy and he keeps arguing with Mom about the courses that I should take . Can't I just pick them myself ? Mom keeps telling me to take Foundation in Tesl while Dad keeps telling me to take Business Management . *sigh* Not just that , now I can't reply his text that fast now cause I just got to handle any things now and because of that he keeps mad at me now . Why is everything so complcated now ???! /flips everything . I just feel like to scream now -.- URGH !

"Hey , guys . Ssup ? Great ? Good to hear that ! I'm great too and always awesome."

 I J U S T F E E L E M P T Y A N D  I J U S T F E E L A L O N E .

These days , everything seems not right . Things , people , atmosphere around me . Everything was just not right . Things seems dark . Smiles seems to fade away from my face day by day . Nobody seems care . Hatred was felt by me from everyone . Things not even going well . Everything that I did was always not going well and failed . Harmony ? Is there such a thing ? Long last happiness ? Is there such a thing ? My heart seems can't take it anymore , everything that happened I kept keep it to myself . I can't even tell it to dad or mom or my siblings . I don't want to make them feel worry about me . Mom already carried to many problems , I don't want to add more of her problems . Besties ? Aqilah is the only person that I share my stories with and yeah it really does released my tension feels a bit . But , why did I still feels suffocated ? It's like the most horrible year for me . 18 ? everyone said that it was the most awesome age ever but to me , everything was sucked . Not even one thing seems goes right . I just cried too many times already alone . Yeah , my toilet is the best place for me to cry . It's the best way or I'll feel more suffocate . Sometimes ,I just wish I did not exist in this world . I dont like to be like this , only that one besties of mine knows what's happening and understands what did I feel now . Sometimes , I just feel to break all those glasses and throws all the things that I have and scream loudly till I satisfied . I don't want to be like this . People keeps judging and judging but don't they care about others feelings ? KPOP ? yeah , I love them . what's wrong with it ? Did people knows the reason I love 'em ? You only judge me but you don't know my stories . It's the only thing that can make me laugh when i'm in a sorrow . When I cry , did you even care ? Just let me be , I have my own solution to get my smiles back . I just want to be happy . That's all , leave me alone . And yeah , even if I love KPOP , I did not forget my religion , I still obey Allah's , alhamdullilah :') . I don't get it , can't people just let other people's happy . Anyway , I just post this to release my tension . adios .

Assalammualaikum peeps . annyeong ~~ :) 

Wondering who's those girls ? teehee . it's me and my omma . heeee ~~ I guess this post will be about this girl again . hiks . Actually , she's already continued her study while i'm still waiting . (err -_-) okay , just ignored it . teehee . To be honest , I really really miss her . how can I not missing her since from Form 1 that is when I was 13 , we have been stucked together like a glue :') We're like twins that can't be seperated . I've been in the same class with her for FOUR YEARS , can you just imagine ? hahaha :D that is the main reason that we're keep on doing activities together and we're stuck like a glue . teehee . I really miss her , seriously , it's almost one or two months we're not contacting each other . So, it feels like I lost the other half of me :'/

I'm thankful that I've found a friend like her . She's the sweetest and kindest person for me . She's taught me so many things . She always protect me like I'm her little sister (eventhough sometimes it makes me feel annoyed) xD yup . that's why I love to call her omma or unnie eventhough i'm the one that born earlier . Because she's takes care of me really well :') She's the one that support me to wear hijab the years before . We went through a lot of hard things together . We cried together . We laugh together . We share secrets together . 

I always went to her house if mom's gonna pick me up late . Almost all the time , we spent our days together . We even enter competition together . I always cried with her everytime we got problems and we keep comforting each other . She always hug me if I feel upset :'/  How can I not miss her ? :'/

I remembered the day that I sleepover at her house before she's continuing her studies . Our last hangout . We cooked together for dinner and all . I miss that moment . I miss how we keep fight for Minho . :')

I always wondering when can I meet her again ? or will I get to meet her again or not ? 

Mom always said that there will be time that you guys won't see each other anymore your school years . All of you will go with your own path . 

I just don't want to believe that . I just don't want it to happened . Even if this happened , I won't forget her . She'll always remain in my heart . :')

I'm actually crying when I thought of her . And I'm crying now too . I hope you'll miss me too . of course you'll miss me . How can you forget this adorable friend of yours right ? hahaha :')

I hope I get to see you again omma . I don't care where or when . but , I'm just hoping that  we could meet again :')

Sincerely NAD :)

Assalammualaikum peeps . Annyeong . Hello . :)

These days I've been thinking frequently about my future . Will it go as well as I planned ? Will it be running smoothly as planned ? After my examination has ended last year , I thought that everything will went exactly as I planned . But , I was completely wrong . My application for my preferred university was been rejected and I didn't get to enter it this time . I felt very sad and down . I felt that my life going to be ruin . I felt useless  and thought that my life was going to lead to dark path of life . Yeah , I really felt that way . How stupid I am ? -.- It's just for the first intake . Of course not everyone will be able to make it . *don't be like me . don't ever lose hope* I forgot that there was going to be second intake for that university . Alhamdulillah , there's actually a second chance for me . :) So , I've applied again and still waiting for it . My family keeps supporting me behind my back including my uncle that cares a lot about me. Mom keeps saying that "it's not the end of the world and there's nothing to be rush about . There will always be opportunities , it's just not this time . Insyaallah , you'll get it after this." Yeah , she's right . She also said that if I get it this time , don't take it lightly and neglect my studies . Work hard for it , and always remember Dad's hardwork for my benefit . Yes , mom . I'll get it and I'll work hard for it and I wont let my results let you down . I'll be a successfull person for you Mom and Dad , not just but for our whole family and me. I'll be more than what you ever dream of . Insyaallah one day . Don't worry mom , dad :')

NAD.

Assalammualaikum :) Sorry , if my post this time kinda , you know weird . Just expressing what I really felt from the bottom from my heart :') Crush , yeah . I know every people got their own crush right ? Yeah , we're just a normal people that have feelings towards the people that we're kinda attracted to... but , it's just kinda weird why must crush will not be ours at the end . They would like end up with someone else , and we're be like "Yeah , go ahead , you're just a crush to me" and we're end up as a lone ranger forever . =_=' I kinda tired with that kind of situation . Why can't we end up with them ? Why must when we started to develops our feelings towards them , they would be someone else's boyfriend :'( Why they could not see us standing in front of them , cared for them and etc. Plus , why keep searching for others while we're keeps appearing in front of them .The most hurtful part when they're seeing us as a friend only and we're in the "FRIEND ZONE" . Plus , they always gonna tells story about their awesome moment with their girlfriends and we're be like "Oh really ? that's good for you . May you live happily ever after with her :')" But , deep in our hearts , it's like they've been stabbed so many times with a very sharp knife or it had break into pieces like a broken glass >< It's not like that you're so shy that you can't tell him or confess to him that you're liking him but , you'll knew that it'll break your relationship with him as a friend and both of you will be a stranger to each other forever . So , you just have to keep it to yourself  and keep on supporting him with his girlfriend . It's heartbreaking . Really really heartbreaking . I knew that feelings . I've experienced it so many times . But , as you keep it to yourself . It might eaten yourself up at the end of the day :'(  For me , to let it go away , I just keep my distance away from him . But , it's hard to do that so . The more you keep your distance . The more it keeps getting near . :'( 

NAD .